∞ Drops of Wanderlust ∞

And the worst part about giving your best and trying your hardest is when you end up being hated and cursed instead. Tell you what, this world is getting worthless.

∞ 19th May // 24 notes

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Mid year’s over now and i guess i have more free time to visit Tumblr. Plus, June holiday is coming so no more busy days for me. Hooray! Anyway, i’m currently reading this book which i borrowed from my classmate. Hope to finish this one before May ends.

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∞ 17th May // 34 notes

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First day of May, first post since my hiatus. I’ve been really busy with school, especially that mid year is coming. So i apologize for my absences. Been really busy doing this art for my mid year exam, glad i’m finished already.

It’s my first time painting with acrylic paint and it’s really frustrating i tell you.

My finished artwork. Will draw this one on A3 paper for mid year. I just hope i’ll be able to finish it within 3 hours *cross fingers* Oh, and i was really surprised when someone told me that tumblrbot suggested me. hihi :) Hello guys! Sana kilala niyo pa rin ako hanggang ngayon..haha

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∞ 1st May // 50 notes

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You’re never too young to dream big.

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∞ 14th April // 28 notes

Done with arts homework. Finally! I’ve been making this for years. We’re asked to draw four different distortions using 4 different techniques. So here’s the first two. Gonna do my essay in Social Studies now. Ugh, school :(

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∞ 9th April // 33 notes

So i’m writing this, in a vague way. Like how hazy and blurry my feelings are right now. Or how utterly obscure everything is to me at this very moment. I’m inconvertibly worthless, or how do i even put it in a single word—worthless. I feel so hollowed and empty deep down. Tell me dear, is that normal? Feeling sad in a different sad kind of way. Like i wanna cry a bucket of tears, but it just won’t come out. It never does anyway. I feel so threatened and apprehensive. Like a ghost will appear beside me or something bad might happen. I feel so scared right now, that my heart keeps beating rapidly, more rapidly as each seconds pass. I want to die. Not to die forever, but just for a day. Let me experience death for once, not for a lifetime. I wanna know how it feels. I wanna know if death is more terrifying than this fear i’m feeling right now.

∞ 7th April // 26 notes

Enjoy your summer break guys! :) I won’t be enjoying it the same way i’ve enjoyed my summer for 15 years. This year’s different since i’m stuck with school. Goodbye long days, beaches, ice creams, and do nothing days.

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∞ 7th April // 22 notes

I’m back with bullets again after being AWOL. My week went so fast that i never even realized i already survived 1st week of school.

1st day of school was pretty hard. Add up my school bag weighing 7.4kg. The books are soooo heavy! :(
NOSEBLEEED..yah know, English here, English there, English everywhere. lol
Met new friends, Clarissa and Winnie. They’re like the first person who talked to me at school. They’re sooo nice and pretty as well.
Had a really hard time coping up (until now) because it’s just so hard!
2nd day got P.E. We ran for 2.4km, and i finished in around 19min. Talk about tortureeee!
Met Myrah, and Izza, and Fathin and some of my classmates whom i couldn’t even remember. Because their names are really hard to pronounce.
3rd day got Art Class. Hooray! We drew things in fish eye effect, which is so hard. Glad i finished mine on time.
Plus, my school uniform looks awful whenever i wear them huhu.
I still don’t have any CCA to join.
Monday again soon. I still don’t want to go to school :( sigh
That’s all for now. I don’t feel like writing in long posts right now.

∞ 30th March // 21 notes

Question from Anonymous:

What paper do you use for the paper cranes? and tutorials maybe. Thanks gillian!

I just used an ordinary colored paper, but if you have an origami paper then that’ll be better. You can try here for tutorial or just search in google.

Anonymous asked you:

hey Gillian. what app do you use for polaroids.

I don’t use any apps, i just edit in Photoshop.

Anonymous asked you:

don’t feel depressed!! All the hard work you’re going through in school right now and whatever else may be going on will pay off in the long run, I promise :) So lift up your chin and grin and be happy!! :D

I just hope so. Thank you so much, whoever you are <3

∞ 30th March // 4 notes

Yes, i’m stil alive people. But school is slowly killing me down, and so is my blog or worst. It’s been a week since i last updated, and i don’t really have any photos to post right now. So bare with paper cranes, ~~again~~. I will definitely have more time to blog some other day. I’m still feeling so upset with my self, and depressed for no apparent reason right now :(

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∞ 29th March // 48 notes

I hate this. I hate this feeling. I’m isolated in an island i never really wanted to be in. I’m surrounded with people who passes through me like i’m a ghost. I’m being friends with people who never really wanted to be friends with me. I hate this. It sucks. This feeling sucks. I really wanna cry, pack my things up and runaway from here. Go back to where i really belong. I don’t want this! I don’t want to be in here! Everyday is so hard. Waking up, having this heavy feeling inside me, being nervous and coward. I’m such a mess. Everything is a mess. I really really really wanna go home.

∞ 29th March // 17 notes

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This was taken using my phone. And of course, improved photo was always a result of my great Photoshop skills (LOL, kidding). Sorry for being inactive guys. School this Monday *sigh*

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∞ 22nd March // 30 notes

Why can’t cherry blossoms just grow in the Philippines or even here in Singapore? That way spring will be pink, and lovely…and beautiful. Not just some ordinary green blooming everywhere.

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∞ 17th March // 28 notes

I whispered your name, unbeknownst in that eerie silence. Your name’s a taboo my heart banned from saying. You, yourself, is a crime, an interdiction no one dares to commit. I hate you. No. Hate is an understatement. I loathe you. I loathe every dust particles that made you. Those almond eyes of yours that shines the brightest among the stars for me. That pointy nose and perfectly curved lips you have. Those brown strands of hair and everything. You are perfect. So perfect that being with you makes me a rock beside a precious diamond. But no, i don’t loathe you for that—being perfect and intoxicating. I loathe you for those cascading tears you’ve poured in my eyes. Those sharp daggers you’ve buried in my chest, deep down my heart. Those scars that reminds me of my own stupidity. I loathe you. But i loathe myself more, for loving you still.

∞ 16th March // 8 notes